Yes I'm On A Rant...(no for the poltically correct or squeemish)

Ok before I even go on with this. Let me give you a warning right now from jump; there will be many colorful words, there will be many insulting and things that will make a nun cry and the most gritty sailor blush with embarrassment. So if you are one of those who shy away from the most vulgar and profane of blog entries, I do advise now to back away very slowly.

I will provide you with 30 seconds to decide...your time starts now...well I would give you that if the damn link would work..but oh well...


Made your choice yet........ good...


Now, if any knows the mess I do, I have to deal with doctor's offices, and some times the injured workers. Well on Friday,I have to call providers with decisions and stuff. I revile doing this cause many times folks get very salty and very upset. Well don't blame me I didn't make the decision...I am only the messenger.

Well today it just seem to be the collection of many folks who decide to have their bitchfits today. It must been that blood moon or something. Made them go into lunatic mode. Last call I had to make was to some nurse in Santa Monica...had to give what I said and she had to get very saucy saying if I was giving up decisions please have some intelligence to pronounce the words correctly. Before I go farther...let me say right now. I know many nurses, some of my dearest friends are nurses and I know that you all have some crazy jobs to do...nothing but the most respect to you folks for what you do. But...I'm bout to rant off on one of your fellow comrades in this matter.

Sorry I had to digress...

But when that doucetwat said that shit..oooh I had to get into my mind...did shit just try to smart off on me??

Well let me say to you now..thank you for correcting me...I am so glad that you could learn me in this. I am glad that you were in class that day to learn what the name of the medications were. I mean you could been out doing your 10-guy gangbangs to pay for your classes or was it this week you were shaking your ass at the local strip club...which one was it? Well either way, thank you for learning me. So I am so grateful for you could show me. And you be grateful that I could not say what I wanted to. Because trust me, you would had a good earful and then to hang up on my face. Oh hell naw.....if anyone knows me, that is the one thing you do NOT do.  Want to see me go evil...that is your best path to that. It took everything in me not to call her back and unload on her dumb ass. But, I just count to 10 and play guess the broken bone...as I use some a few baseball bats to limbs. I hope I don't have to deal with her again cause if I do, I may as well clear my desk cause I will be losing my job over this skankzilla.

Almost make me wanna embrace my inner Ike Turner.

Moving on...

Now, those who know how I am...I am one who is fluent of sarcasm and I'm one who just speaks it when its warranted. Now there some poor folks who just can't seem to lighten up with their own lives. I think they have their asses so tight, they burp out their farts. I mean seriously, there enough crazy shit in the world..there is a need for a bit of mirth and humor where it's needed and necessary. Calm the hell down. And what worse some say ooh if you have nothing positive to add then leave yourself out of it. OOOOH!!! Pardon the fuck out of me...!You need some thing positive. I got a good solution for you. Let's try this out ok?

Let's get a few roses or you can pick the flowers. (I would use poison ivy but naw..) You bend over, and I'll ram them up your ass. With all the shit you got over there, let's see if we can grow a positive garden. Want to see something positive...here you go

There you go...now go away..work on your shitty garden...and take your positive wanting bullshit with you. You want something positive..here you go. I'm positive that some of those idiots just need a good heaping helping of shut the fuck up and have a side of go the fuck away. Can't stand folks like that. I know I can't say I'm shocked. Hell I was sent here to piss the world off and I guess they are abusing the privilege. Stupid asses. And I just realized...

/Rant Ends

SAW

Random Nonsense

Waking up this early, on a rainy Sunday was not what I was really having planned. I would like to had slept in just a bit longer. However, my body and the pesky internal alarm had other plans. But, it should not be expected.

I know that it has been quite a while since I last entered anything. Just been a very insane few weeks to be honest with you. With moving to a new apartment (which has the thinnest walls ever grrrrr), and work being an absolute madhouse. I just could not get into any blogging in. Yet, now seems like a great time as any to just drop a few words here and there just to say I'm alive and kicking.

But, there is a more deeper reason why I have not really been writing anything here. Honestly, there allot of things that I just did not have the gumption to post. I am having a hard time just being able to organize my thoughts into something that I can put to either paper or computer. It hasn't always been this way but recently, I feel like a mental dam has been erected and nope can't get past it. I can pretty much summarize that it's from allot of stress that I been dealing with for the past few months. Much of it can't be so easily fixed. No matter how much I wish it could be. The others should be fixed if there was any opportunity to. And some can't be fixed no matter how much glue, tape and rope you have. I guess those things are the ones we just have to accept.

I won't really go into what is all going on. At least not now anyway. I don't know why, just lately, I having the most difficult time confiding any others. It wasn't always the case, yet now days. I just can't seem to open up and tell anyone my deepest issues. And the few I do - and it's a very small circle, I can't tell everything. Because honestly, their own lives and issues are as fucked up as mine is. So, I tend to just keep everything with myself to myself and listen to others. I always felt it was best to do it myself. I grew up trying to be self-reliant. Because I hate to be a burden to others. It's something I feel stronger about now. I been avoiding many people as of late. Not because I don't care about them or anything. It's mostly because I just have this deficiency of social interaction - especially among many strangers or acquaintances. I have to don that sociable mask and create the alter ego of who I wish myself to be for the public consumption. And to be 100% honest, it's something I feel I can't do.

To my friends I have been avoiding, please forgive me for my absence from you life. It not because I don't care. Far from it. I care enough to just not throw my issues upon you. Knowing many of you have your own problems going on.Or better so much good fortune or blessings, why dampen it with a shadow of killjoy. Of course I'll be there to listen, to cheer, to advise and to support. Yes, I'm being hypocritical in my reason - but your needs are more important than mine. I'll ease your worried and burdens, adding yours to mine. It's what I honestly think I was sent here for. No, I do not see myself as some martyr or someone who should be sainted. I'm just me. For one joys and pains I will stand with you. For my own, I must stand alone. It's best this way. None need worry of myself.

I survive. I endure.

SAW