A smile of happiness behind a heart of sadness

Sometimes the most difficult thing we can do is put on a smile of happiness for others in our lives. Whether it's for a monumental achievement or some personal, positive outcome of something. However, how difficult is it to smile for the world when inside there is such a conflict in ourselves? How hard can it be to really be happy for others when we ourselves are not happy. Surly, we can put on a false face and show support for our friends and loved ones. It's the simplest thing we can do, but where is the sincerity? The genuine, heartfelt joys that are returned for the good cheer and news others are willing to share with us?

As humans, we have an inert ability to constantly evaluate our own success and happiness based on others. It is unwitting bar that everyone puts to weigh our own merits for our own personal satisfaction. It is as essential as breathing, yet something that no matter how much we tend to ignore, it lingers like a bad cold sore.

Is it that most people tend to show and share success as a subconscious form of gloating? Something that we don't even notice or acknowledge? Or can it be that it's a deliberate prodding of their joys like a sinister trophy to put themselves on a pedestal of good mirth and make others feel unhappy. Who knows.

However, what about those who are not feeling so happy and proud? It is easy to share a smile and say I am happy and glad for them? Especially when there is no good joys or cheers in our own lives. How hard is it to be happy for others when in our own core being we are not happy within ourselves? Pretend - fake - down right force ourselves to give ourselves a bit of joy. A false complement and share a joy and things get better.

In short how does this wake others feel. Can we make others happy for good news when they in turn make ourselves feel low. Suck up our pride and push on? Sometimes it's easier said than done. So we just suck up our hurts of our own lives and pretend. Share a smile but in ourselves shed a tear.

Sometimes you must ask yourself...

are you FREAKING KIDDING ME??? I ask myself that in how some people can just have a notion of asking for so many things or begging to have such attention bestowed upon them or win some sort of contest to up some status. I sometimes have to look and laugh at so many people. As much as I (in my own sadistic, evil way, enjoy a good bit of begging), even I have to ask myself are you that hard up and desperate to have ever twenty minutes asking for some sort of social gratification and expansion. I kind of have to laugh and think if you can do it maybe once a day or something, that is fine and good. But if you do it with every waking moment, do you honestly think that you will get what you asking for. I was always raised to believe that begging constantly gets you anything and if you do somewhat receive it, do you really, truly appreciate it that you earned it on your own merits or was it the result of nagging like a drug-induced billy goat.Naaaaaaaaaag! Sometimes I wonder do most people do it just to have some individuals shut the hell up! Maybe that is it.

However, it just behooves me to think that some people have to drop to such methods. And when some people fall into that web, do those individuals show any gratitude? Any amount of sincere thanks for accommodating to their request? Hell no! And if they do it is soooooo generalized and so insincere that it makes some people go do nothing of the sort again or make sure someone else wins or receives your support just out of spite. Believe me, as a villain, I have do that on more than one occasion. Most of the time, I just sit and watch and see how many people fall below the waves of disappointment and find a small sense of humility. However, that is almost like trying to find a fart in a jacuzzi.

I know this will probably piss off plenty of folks but those who do understand me and can relate, they will probably agree with me and even call some folks out about it. But, they will probably get labeled: Hater or Jealous. However, to be a hater is to be envious of what they have, are or being. Does anyone really WANT to be a whiney butt beggar who has to bribe folks with empty promises and false gratitude?

But pleeeease....I'm begging you pleeeeeeeeeeeease....oh hell let me stop. I have a bit more pride than that. I'm going to leave that for the folks who need it.Or James Brown who can sang it better.

I wonder how many folks will be ready to cuss me out on this one....

SAW

Insincere Gratidude Is Worse The No Gratitude..

sometime I find it so discouraging and disappointing in how some humans (and I use the term in the broadest of sense) can be so damned ungrateful when someone goes out of their way to do something nice for them, out of the kindest of your heart. And then how is that gesture returned. With an empty thank you and false appreciation like yeah ok whatever.

Nothing pisses me off more than ungrateful people...especially when some people do try to bring a smile to your face with the smallest gestures. As if you are due some sense of entitlement like you should be showered with all that is due to you simply because you grace the planet with your mere presence. Well I hate to be such a barer of bad news but...YOU ARE NOT REALLY ALL THAT! And sadly so many people blow up so many egos now of days with such brain-numbing BS, that some people believe that they are the best thing since ketchup.

Now, I'm all for having confidence and stuff. But, when you have to throw an ego that spills from your head and pollute this planet, not good. And more so, that does not give you some sense of feeling shower me with praise, gifts and I'll give you the honor of being in front of me for your own awe. PLEASE!

But, however worse that is I think acting as if you are forced to have some humility and appreciation of things is as bad. Ok if you can fake it enough just to make someone smile that's fine. Just remember, you don't have to have anything nice done for you but then again, most people will just go beg or something and someone will be brainless enough to do it. And people wonder why don't people just do nice things for others. Cause many are so damn unappreciative. Fake if if you must, don't like it smile and say thanks and try to at least PRETEND....most of you all are good at faking things anyway. How hard is it?

And people wonder why niceness is a dying breed.....