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Wednesday, November 6, 2024

So what do we do now....

 


  Now that the dust has settled upon this election and the celebrations are going on, I am reflecting on several things. I was looking at the exit polls and well, honestly seeing that Blacks pretty much were in lockstep in trying to save this nation from what's coming. Granted there were a few stragglers and honestly, it does not shock me. They just need to be identified and banned from every family function, cookout, spades tournament and domino game. It's clearly like Kendrick Lamar said, they Not Like Us and totally suffer from Uncle Russ Syndrome. And for those others who contributed to voting blue. It is appreciated. So please understand what I'm about to say does not apply to you. 

  But what we gonna do right now is just let those who wanted this country have it. We are done trying. I know I am. If you want this Christian Nationalism Project 2025 Nonsense. Just wait to until you see your healthcare gone, wait to see all your reproductive rights gone, let's see all your preventive medicine evaporate. Those taxes breaks you think you are getting will not happen. He said the same things before and it will not happen. When the Executive Branch is dissolved to only the President and the Department of Justice and he becomes a dictator on day 1 (Which he totally will do make no fucking mistake) You can kiss the Department of Education goodbye. Commerce will go away. Because I'm sure that we will not be doing any types of business with anyone overseas. Those tariffs about to screw you royally. Didn't learn how those work did you. You gonna let a person with a brainworm in his head run HHS and get kickbacks from big Pharma? But hey we getting cheap groceries right?

NOPE!!! 

You honestly think that the manufacturers are just going to drop prices because the President said so. Good luck. Get ready for the screw job you deserve. Just remember, you brought it on yourself. 

But you know what instead of saying all this...I'm just going to leave this right here. 





Well if you wanted to have a Gilead Dystopic America...well guess what you go it. 

so what are we gonna do...well...nothing. Because there isn't anything that can be done and if you think that he will leave office in 2028...nope I can pretty much assure you he won't. And hell it won't be a shock if JD Vance invokes the 25th Amendment and take over himself and we really get that Handmaid's Tale MAGA seems to want. But hey...you want gas cheaper right? 

SAW 

I'm sorry we failed you...

 


Hello all,


I know you are looking at the results of this mess called the election, and you feel the exact same way that I do. There are way too many raw emotions that are going inside your head; trust me I have those feelings too. You are scared which you have every reason to be. But, I want to say to you all. 


I'M SORRY THAT WE FAILED YOU...

 To the women who wanted to have their own body autonomy and rights as a human.

I'm sorry that we failed you. 

I'm sorry that our nation will not become a real Handmaid's tale. And that you will lose any sense of rights. 

 To those in the LGBTQ+  community who just wanted to live in a country and simply exist.

 I'm sorry that we failed you. 

 Seeing so many people who decide that you don't matter and are prepared to commit socio-genocide upon you just because you wish to live your life as best as you can without being judged, persecuted and what not. 

 I'm sorry that we failed you. 

  To my people of color who did not want to have to worry about being subjected to the police state tactics that we are gonna have now. 

 I'm sorry that we failed you.

  I understand your concerns, I know it puts a weight on your soul. And so much doubt in your hearts of what to do now. 

  I'm so sorry that we failed you. 

 To the world who wished that this nation would wake up and try to be something better for the global community. 

  I'm sorry that we failed you. 

  We did our best to prevent what you feared most from happening. Sadly, it does not seem to be enough. 

 I know the apologies are not enough for what you all are feeling. And trust me, I get it as well. It seems empty, hollow and meaningless. But, I want you to know, it's from the bottom of my heart. 

Those who lost friends and split away from families for your own beliefs.

 I'm sorry that we failed you. 

I heard it all. I know that some say that you should never let politics break up those in your life. But, sadly I have seen it more times than I can count. It's not about the person you vote for, but the morals of the agenda they stand for. I heard so much of this being good vs evil. Democracy vs Socialism/Fascism It's about decency vs indecency. Plain and simple. 

To those whose lives will be lost in the coming years.

I'm sorry that we failed you. 

No words can give comfort, and I know where your heart is. I'm truly sorry friends. 

As you wake up and see a house, a community, a nation truly divided. It makes me think of a quote "You get what you deserve." And now we shall see the fruits of this tree of woe. 

But hey groceries will be cheap right? 

But to those who are reading this and feel lost and distraught. 

I'm sorry we failed you. 




 SAW

Sunday, August 18, 2024

Sci-Fi Story Time

 For some reason, I been reading lots of the reddit sci-fi about first contact and high alien civilizations and the interactions between humans and the galactic community. Well...I decided to make up something small and short. Nothing that's gonna be stellar or win a Bradbury award. Nevertheless, have a good read. 

We saw the true face of humanity...and it horrified us.


When the humans of Earth arrived on the galactic scene, it was totally by happenstance. The Benldi were the first race to encounter the humans. The humans barely colonized any worlds outside their own home world when the Benldi met them. It was the first extraterrestrial race that the humans met. While there was apprehension from both sides, there became a bit of understanding and eventually a bond of friendship formed. The humans received technology from the Benldi in exchange of granting one of the worlds in their solar system to call their home after the race called the Trulax nearly destroyed their world and wiped out their entire civilization. Humanity gladly accepted and offered the planet they called Saturn to call their own. Being that the gas giant was almost identical to their planet, the Benldi settled quickly.


Over the decades, each race learned much from the other. Humanity did learn how to achieve faster-then-light technology; as well as learn about the Intergalactic Federation. Eventually, the Benldi took several of the human representatives to the Intergalactic Federation Central Planet of Gordaus IV to formally introduce them to the galactic stage. Many of the other races were suspicious of the humans. Mostly because Earth was on furthest part of the Milky Way and there was very few worlds in that part of the galaxy, more that were even populated. But eventually, the humans were accepted into their community. The Federation were quickly impressed in how humans were so versatile in skills and politics. The humans rose in respect within the Federation, especially in commerce and humanitarian aid. To see human medical vessels during conflicts or the massive commercial trade ships were welcomed in almost every system.


While the humans were welcomed and considered one of the more even-tempered races, many of the member worlds were concerned with the race as a whole. Looking at their history, they saw that the humans were war-like and capable of savage acts. When the Troduk Ambassador asked the Human Representative about their history of wars and bloodshed, the Human Representative smiled and said, while humanity almost fell into extinction in the sixth world war, they were able to set aside such violence and turn towards peace. We don’t like how we are when we are at war.


Many of the member worlds scoffed at her answer. The Gundgee, one of the most savage members of the Federation insulted the humans time again saying their youngest pouchling can defeat any human. The Human Representative always smiled and laughed saying pray for the day you ever truly fight one of the humans.


The Federation would quickly learn the prophetic words of the Representative. The Trulax made a return to attack several of the Federation worlds. They targeted many of the human colonies. The Trulax enslaved many humans in their conquests. Any types of peaceful resolutions were ignored. Only war was the language the Trulax would speak. After one of the medical ship was destroyed during a peaceful mission to render aid to the Zeulua, Humanity knew they was only one response.


When the Human Representative called for a special session of the council, she informed them that they tried to be peaceful and find a way to resolve this without bloodshed. Now there was only one response for such useless slaughter. War was the be declared. Many of the other races laughed and stated human never liked to fight. You were peacemakers and traders. What do you know of the arts of warfare. She said just because we don’t like to fight does not mean we not capable.


When the Trulax sent their First Pride Fleets to the Sol system, they destroyed several colonies and stations. When they reached the outer orbit of Uranus, the Trulax were met with the Human response fleet. Hundreds of battleships of different classes opened fire on the Trulax vessels. In a matter of minutes the Trulax ships fled the system. But the humans, set a final message to the Trulax Empire to cease their attacks or they will face something called The Totality of War. The Federation while impressed with the defense of the human’s territory, it was only one battle. The Trulax would quickly respond with virus-bombing a colony world at the edge of human space.


The revenge fleets of Earth would travel to the Trulax system in a campaign of revenge. Several observation ships were dispatched to observe the humans in war. What they saw sent chills to their core. The first world of the Trulax Empire was destroyed by planetary bombardment. Mass driver bombs rained down onto the planet that caused tectonic collapse to the world. Void cannons tore the atmosphere of the planet caused the skies to turn into nuclear fire, wiping out the whole population in a matter of minutes. The Trulax defense ships were all but annihilated in one massive battle above the Trulax throne world. It was said that the destruction of the ships were so horrid, that bodies of the Trulax were in orbit around the planet that would remain for decades. The Trulax, never known to surrender attempted to communicate with the human for terms. The pleas were ignored. The commander of the revenge fleet sent a response, “You wanted to see the true face of war, you not have it. You will now see the war in totality.” Words that were broadcasted to the whole Federation to hear.


Thousands of human solders landed onto the surface of Trulax Prime to lay waste to the population. And that was when the true meaning of horror was displayed and the face of humanity was revealed: Tanks that fired thermonuclear energy that vaporized bunkers, atomizing the defenders inside. Guns that fired beams that caused alterations of gravity around their targets, making them nothing more than mounds of condensed materials. Grenades that possessed the powers of a mini black hole that caused such devastation that to even describe it would be unbelievable.


The destruction of Trulax lasted for only three standard days and the number of causalities on both sides were enormous. The final bastion of Trulax fell after three hours of fighting when an orbital strike of rail cannons destroyed the place, wiping out the Trulax Royal family. It was then the attacks ceased and the humans pulled back their attacks. Federation observers witnessed the aftermath of the attack with sickening horror. Reports came in stating that nearly ninety-seven percent of the Trulax race was simply eradicated which was over eleven billion inhabitants. The planet itself suffered so much damage and destruction, that it would take generations for any restoration efforts show any significant progress.


And of course, the humans, who caused all this genocidal destruction were the first with relief ships to help restore some sense of stability to Trulax Prime. The human representative was called before the Federation council to give account on the ruthlessness of Humanity. Many of the member races would research the complete history of Earth and the armed conflicts of this race endured. The Gundgee, who loved war as much as any other race were appalled by how the Humans waged the attack on the Trulax.


When asked how could a race that was so diplomatic and willing to aid others without any hesitation can be so ruthless and so blood-thirsty. The Human representative simply answered. “We abhor war because we are very good at it. We don’t want to fight but when we are pushed to it, we shall fight and make sure those we fight never wish to strike up arms against us. When total war is called, we do not hold back and as you can see from the results. The price is a steep one.”


“There is an old Human proverb. War is the last defense of peace. Fight to restore that peace.”

It was then we saw that humans are capable of doing whatever it takes, even genocide to preserve the peace in the galaxy. Behind the face of charity and goodwill lies a heart and mind that could very destroy us all. If anything, the Trulax Genocide has taught us. Never push the humans to war.


Friday, May 31, 2024

The Pride of Mental Health

 


As we have come up to the month of June. First thing I want to say is goodness, we have really flown by this year. It doesn't really seem like it has been 6 months. Yet here we are. First thing that comes to my mind is that Summer is almost among us. Which is going to be the god-awful heatwaves in Texas. Which I will not be around outside much for it supposed to be one of the hottest on record. 

Also, what occurs in June is Pride Month. Now, I have been an ally of the LGBTQ community for a long time and shall always stand in the front for them. And I wish each and every one of those people have a wonderful and awesome time and celebration of their unique awesomeness. 

But June is also a month of something that really gets lost in the shuffle of the rainbows and handholding and good cheers. June is also Men's Mental Health Awareness Month. Something for years has been so ignored by the masses. You hardly heard a wink of it on the news, or social media. If you do, it's usually by men who talk about it being not even mentioned or ridiculed. However, in March which is Women's Mental Health Awareness Month, it gets center billing. Now I am all for the mental health and well-being for one and all. But why is one given such recognition while the other isn't even mentioned or worse off not even spoken. 

Let's be honest the state of mental health for men in this country is on the wrong side of hilarious. Especially when so many of the stats that gets ignored:

  • Over four times as many men as women die by suicide in the U.S.
  • Suicide rates increased by 36% between 2000 to 2021
  • Suicide accounted for 48,183 deaths in 2021, which is approximately one death every 11 minutes
  • An estimated 12.3 million adults in the U.S. seriously considered suicide in 2021, with 3.5 million planning a suicide attempt and 1.7 million attempting suicide
  • Provisional data suggests that nearly 50,000 people in the U.S. died by suicide in 2022, which is a 3% increase from 2021
  • Suicide rates declined for men ages 34 and younger in 2022 and increased in males ages 35 and older[
  • For women, suicide rates declined for those aged 24 and younger in 2022 and increased for those 25 and older

the CDC reports that LGBTQ+ men are more likely to have mental health conditionsTrusted Source than their straight and cis counterparts, while adults with disabilities are almost five times as likelyTrusted Source to report frequent mental health distress than adults without disabilities.

Black, Indigenous, and People of Color, or BIPOC, men are just as likely to have mental health conditions as white men but have less access to mental health care. They’re more likely to need to rely on community support in place of (rather than in addition to) mental health professionals.

Sadly, things like this shall be always ignored. I'm a person who has big issues with mental health and many times people will say ooh whatever and I guess it just something men will endure.

So in essence

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH Everyone...

SAW

Wednesday, April 17, 2024

I'm sorry that I'm weird...

 

I don't think that being weird was such a bad thing. What is worse that having a sense of humor was such a red flag. Seems that some people have a weird sense of hypocrisy; then again seeing how people are now of days, I am not surprised in the slightest. I guess when you are always the one on the outside looking in, it's going to be the status quo. It's something that I really been used to my whole life. I look back at much of my existence and I come up with a theory: that no matter how I try to ingratiate myself in social groups, I don't feel so welcome. No matter what circle I move through. I was always asked to be myself. Biggest mistake ever. Whoever recommended that should never give advice again. Every time I attempt do just that, I either: get shunned, get laughed at, get kicked out or get ignored. I just feel that I need to keep the mask on. I don't want to scare anyone off anymore. Just stupid that some people shun or get cringy when others do or act the same way. Nice bit of BS. So what is to be expected right? 


SAW

Wednesday, September 13, 2023

So nerdy guys are in now...

 


  I am seeing all these videos of women out here saying that nerdy guys are underrated and slept on, and you need to be dating them. And I been looking at so many responses stating that most of these women are straight capping or lying for clout. While I know many would say yes, it is cap. I know a few of them sincerely are loving us nerdy guys. And to them, I say thank you and bless you for giving those dudes a genuine shot. However, the others, I know that it's just a bunch of bullshittery. 

I know that those so called "Nerd" types they are wanting are those tall, attractive, tattooed guys that maybe wear glasses and watch maybe one anime and build Legos and whatnot. To be honest, I think they think that nerd prototype of nerdy men they want are the Henry Cavil (who plays Warhammer) Vin Diesel and Joe Manganiello who play D&D or Ryan Reynolds for the most obvious of reasons. They want those attractive guys that have some sex appeal but have a bit of embrace of being a nerd. But those who been knee-deep into it, being ridiculed in school for liking comics, anime, etc. were laughed at and still laughed at to this day because we don't have a six-pack, or tatted up and all that jazz is a bit tiring, and I know many of guys like-minded are seeing the bullshit for what it is. 

I am not one to try to gatekeep about who dates who in the nerd lifestyle; I am only asking that you be honest about it. Because I know that maybe 85% that say they do are lying out their heads for some type of clout or give some poor sap a very false hope. Many of us guys are over-cautious by nature because we know the traps are out there that we try to get some feelings only to get burned and played. It's why we don't date in the first place. It's hard to trust, hard to believe because many of us have our war stories of how we try to find some woman who has the slightest interest in us, see our existence and run away back to the gym rat or something. I know many of those so-called nerd lovers are psy-ops who probably have an Onlyfans or something. I know not ever woman has that ulterior motive or some sex-worker website and is genuinely interested in us. Then there is the classical defense saying, "Oh there are those who are into nerdy guys who are not usually on the cover of those dime store romance novels, they just not into you because of your personality." I agree, unattractive is unattractive regardless of your situation, but sometimes the circumstances at the time does bring out some things or say things that are normally not what we say or believe. It's just that for some long, we been slept on, ignored, laughed at and ridiculed that now suddenly a spotlight is shone on us, and we have to ask ourselves is this legit, or cap. Most of us are overthinkers by nature and we have to ask ourselves billions of times is this true or not. 

Is it the cynic in me that is just seeing the pessimistic part of everything? Yes, but there is too much evidence to back up the claim too. So, when I see these individuals say they wanna date a nerdy guy, I know it's the ones that you don't expect. Hell, most think they are tall, skinny guys who probably watch Star Wars and plays Magic the Gathering and have a predisposition of being secretly hung like an anaconda or something. Or that gym guy with tatts and a beard that maybe has an insane number of Legos. To each their own, I guess. But some of us don't fit that mold and would like some sense of acknowledgement too. Hell, most would think I don't even fit the nerd culture. But let's see.

Love Anime (Can name shows that isn't Naruto, Bleach (top 5 favorite btw), Dragonball or One Piece)

Plays Warhammer (even before Henry Cavil told the world he did)

Plays Magic the Gathering

Collects Gundam Models 

Reads Sci-Fi

Loves Star Wars 

Loves Science/Astrophysics Shows

Hardcore Gamer

Love Conspiracy Theories 

I Play Massive Amounts of Trivia Games

Read Loads of Comics 

yeah, those things I am into but not 6 foot, not skinny cause I like to eat, and you know the rest. 

I guess I shouldn't care about all this, but I guess it just rubs me the wrong way to see people giving out false hopes to people like us for the simple fact that we have a different lifestyle that all of a sudden is supposed to be cool when less than 10 years ago it was frowned upon. I rather stay alone with my nerdiness than fall into a trap. Just safer that way. 

SAW

Sunday, September 10, 2023

Some people are social butterflies...

 

And then there are people like me who are pretty much the equivalent of a social cockroach. I think throughout my years of engaging in the Social Experiment, I have really attempted to engage in much of social situations only to really fade into the background and just observe. Mostly because I am not one of those people who can just walk into a room and float around and speak with everyone in such a friendly manner. That has been something that I never could master, or even try to attempt. Mostly because it feels so damn awkward for me. 

The parties and engagements that I used go to, while were not as many as some would assume, I mostly kept to a very select group of people and even then, for very few moments because I just honestly felt like I was really there as a forced conversation or convenience at the best of times. So, I usually just stay there briefly and make my ceremonial exit. Not really being missed or thought of for many. 

I do think that at times I have an ability to make people forget that I was there after a few moments. You kind of question yourself and think was I even there or was it just a fleeting thought that I was there at all. It does work to my advantage sometimes; however, there are times when I do think does my existence, play any impactful role in other's lives. It used to be a question that I would ask myself hundreds of times over the years. Now as I have gotten older, I honestly think I already know the answer however I don't think like I like that solution. 

Many years ago, during the Yahoo Chat Era, I have come across so many people of so many different backgrounds, nationalities. Some I keep in touch with loosely, some I avoided or been avoided for some reason or another. Good or ill. But it all goes to question; did I ever, even briefly, make any type of effect on their lives by me being there. I don't think I have if I was to be honest with myself. I don't think if anyone was to mention my name it would be any fondness if there is any memory at all. It is sometimes something I wish I could just do, wipe out the memories of me from many people. Or wipe it from myself as well. I think that much of the traumas that I had endured would have been lessened greatly if I could just pluck those memories out like an eyebrow. I know some would say that you shouldn't do that because those experiences are what makes humans grow and become who they are. But I question them with this counter-question. Do you think those individuals would probably find a greater sense of happiness and fulfillment of the Self, if they did not encounter those things that have messed them up to a point where they struggle with their lives? 

I think I have become so socially withdrawn that I have de-evolved into a recluse, and I think that is a good thing for me. I think growing up pretty much a loner, gave me a deeper understanding of being able to be independent and self-reliant. It was for the lack of effort or even planting myself in those socio-groups, I just think deep down I was just a person who had much of the social acceptance of the aforementioned cockroach. I know that you should be oneself, but the question to ask is what happens if being yourself makes one an outcast? 

I guess that is a question to ask. I just hope that I don't lose my sanity once I find the answer. 


SAW


 

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